Darating Din Siya

Ang pag-ibig ay sadyang ganyan
Pagtitiyaga at tiwala ay kailanagan
Upang ito’y iyong makamtan

Magtatagpo kaya ating daan
Magkakasalubong kalian kaya?
Ikaw ba ay nasaan?
Bakit ba tayo di magkatagpo?

Maghihintay ako gaano man katagal
Kahit na oras ay kay bagal
Ako’y patuloy na magdarasal
Dahil ikaw ang aking mahal

Darating ka ba kalian kaya?
Maghihintay ba ako at aasa?
Masisilayan pa ba kita?
O tuluyang iwaglit sa alaala?
Hanggang kalian ako maghihintay
Na matapos ang iyong paglalakbay

Nag-aabang ako sa’yong pagdating
Maririnig baa king tinig?
Nababanaag ba aking daing?
Gusto ay init sa gabing malamig

Darating ka din, iyon ang alam ko
Handing maghintay itong aking puso
Para lang maramdaman pag-ibig mo

CRAM (A song of sorry and thank you)


Been pretty crazy over you before
You’re the only thing that revolved around my world
Didn’t get enough concentration, only distraction
It’s all because of you

But I forget all of those misfortunes
Even it hurts and I want to get away from you
But temptation never dies
Keep doin’ that mistake over and over again

Crazy in love with you, don’t know what you did to me
Can’t do anything what’s the cure for this?
Even if you dumped me, I keep coming back

You’ve been a part of me
I’m not a part of you
I keep on falling, falling and falling again

I said I love you
You just regret it
I keep on saying, saying and saying again

When will I learn
That you should let go of you
When will I see
That you are no good to me

Want to say thank you for bein’ a part of me
Made me realize what my real worth is

Already moving on
Not part of you anymore
Even it’s too late
I know I’ll be okay
Bridge between us burned

Say thank you for the smiles, talks and jokes
Say sorry for the tears, bitterness in my mouth

Want to say sorry because I fell so badly

Something

The Piano Player

I must admit I fell in love
With someone I could never be with
It is a very hard feeling
That I’m ready to let go

Somewhat the same as prayer
Repeated over and over
There is no other danger
Unlike when you’re on the river
What you feel now is quite denser
That you can float in air
You want this feeling forever
When you heard the piano player

Hate this part of the scene
I don’t want to listen
Want to get out this den
Come out fulfill my dreams

This is not a fever
Or I’m not sober
Don’t need any cover
All I need is savior
From this piano player

Now I need to go
I fell so helpless too
I’m another victim
Trying to fight for love

You had me at my best
I know I’m so careless
And now I’m so breathless
All I want is rest
In this thing I called mess

Surrender

It’s getting darker
Can’t see anything
Roads gone smaller
Can’t move anymore
Their getting bigger
Can’t be seen now

I’ve been trapped here
Oxygen’s running out
And now I’m crying
Because I’m helpless

I know I don’t belong here
I know you will arrive
And save me from this mess
You’ll gonna give me some light

I'll remember your smile, that easy smile that i could never be again the reason for. If I miss you I'll just use your simple name. I don't know how to let you go but If you're so willing then I'll learn to. Things just don't fall into place you want them to but I truly wish you get it as you please. I braved the violence of your existence for only and now I would have to be most brave without you and I will. If it made me cry only because I want it to pour like rain so that after I won't fret summer or anything steamy I will be. Thanks for the moonlight and a year of two seasons I thought I wouldn't have to worry bout the fourth quarter storm. Don't worry I will find my calm. There's always a rainbow after the rain right? I don't know how but I know I'll find my pot of gold I thought I already have but then I don't.

CHANCE

don't want to be a loser
but it seems like im loosing you
slowly we're drifting apart
an im beggining to feel the pain

things weren't like this before
you use to be a fond of me evermore
everything then turned right for me
now i dont know what went wrong

you know i did everything
to follow your heart and you
no doubt and hesitations
coz i thought we could make it through

here i am waiting
for what will happen after
coz i know your not listening
look, i'm trying to get hold on you

hope that you could give me another chance
chance to start w/ you again
chance to show you how much i love you
chance that could change our life through

The Love That Never Was


I knew there was something special about you
But I didn’t see that the first time I saw you
But somehow in some strange way
I felt a gentle tug in my heart
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
It may be the way you smile
It may be the way you look
Either way, I realized I was beginning to like you
I started wishing… I started dreaming…
The feeling is something I’ve never felt before
It’s a wonderful feeling that sometimes makes me smile
It’s a feeling that makes me all jumpy inside
But it’s also a feeling that makes me want to cry
I’ve watched you from a distance
And I’ve longed for a single smile
But all you ever gave me is longing
My heart aches every time I hear you sing
Coz you sound so beautiful
I feel warm every time I see you smile
My heart beats faster every time you walk by
I don’t wanna say I’m crazy about you
I don’t wanna say I’m falling for you
Coz it hurts to know that I would never mean anything to you
And it hurts even more to know there’s nothing I can do
Sometimes it makes me so sad
But still, I can’t stop thinking of you
I can’t say I love you, I can’t say I do
For I don’t even know you
And even if I wanted to… say a thing or two
There’s no way I can get through
So I guess I’ll just be admiring you from a distance
I can’t even look at you as much as I want to
There are a lot of things I don’t understand
A lot of questions I don’t have answers to
But one thing I know for sure
I may mean nothing to you
But boy, am I glad to know you!
And no matter how stupid this feeling can get
I’m never ashamed to admit it’s true
Coz no matter how hopeless, no matter how painful
God knows I’m happy there’s YOU…

It’s hard to fly on the sky
To fight and defend life
But what’s the hardest part of all?
Is it saving others life
Or saving my ruined life?

Faced and defeated demons
Takes just a minute to finish
But defeating you is never easy
It’s the hardest of them all
And it takes a long, long time

Closing Cycle by Paul Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

.......I always pretend to be happy, talking a lot and laughing out loud so that nobody would know what’s really inside but at the end of the day, I always find myself alone, encountering the crucial truth; that I’m too broken inside and not even a million laughter can take away the pain. Only if there are such medicines for emotions, I would take it triple dose or even higher.”

Just when you’ve moved on and thought you’ve finally gone far enough, something brings you to a touchstone. And that’s how you realize love has a habit of coming back.......

Sometimes you just have to put a period on something that has to end, and not just settle for a comma. It’s because time will come and you’ll realize that it’s nice to see a complete sentence, rather than seeing a phrase that’s completely hanging and doesn’t make any sense.

If it’s real and if it’s true love, then it’ll always be there. You can pretend it’s gone and even move on but that love, it’s still there in the depths of your mind. Sometimes a single object or a song triggers it all, and you’re right back where you started, in the arms of the one you lost.

If you have to try and convince yourself that you don’t care about someone, you definitely care about them more than you think.

Everytime I hear people say ‘what a small world…’ I kept on wondering why. If the world is small, why is it that most of us hasn’t found what makes us happy?

If you want to know where you heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders. Love will always stray into the place you least expect.

people come and go. It's the nature of time: that nothing stays the same, everything is always in constant motion, everything is always moving. Some things move backwards while some move forward and there are those that go up and down. But regardless of the direction, there is always movement. Love, relationships and couplehood are no exceptions.

But one thing, though: It's memory that makes people sad. It's when you hold on to the past that you feel regret, nostalgia, sadness. Holding on to the past is trying to stop time's forward motion. As cliched as this may sound, healing is a process. There will be days that you will feel like you have finally moved on but at the middle of an ordinary day, it will strike you... you haven't. There will be good and bad days.

But now, you have the license to cry.. howl if you want to. Revel in the sadness of your heartbreak. Let it out. Just make sure that after all these, you will snap out of it.

Blast from future...

A new year has come. I don’t remember what happened to me. I wasn’t able to remember the things that molded me this kind of person. I know I was trapped in the past, years of confusion and despair but with the help of some people, I was able to achieve what I’ve been looking for.

I do have a lot of ambitions in my life. I love to explore lot of things in life. I want to try everything. Why? I don’t know, I really don’t know probably I can make an alibi, a good one would be, I love to live life to the fullest but the truth is I’m searching for a place where I can succeed or can fill my half empty soul.

As I walk down the aisle of life I felt the roses, their thorns that put scar on my bare feet. Fortunately, I was able to reach the end of the aisle, the one that I was dreaming of when I was a teenager. I must say, it’s not easy, it’s so hard to fight for your goals but time revealed that I was for it; it was my destiny even for a while. I belong there and set to stay for a moment and keep on singing my songs but just like a traveler I have to leave to explore the beauty of life, the other beauty, to search for what I’ve been looking for.

I’m a teacher that’s what my diploma has said, a teacher or probably an instructor or professor having an extraordinary life- not just touching the heart of my students or my co-faculty but also the other people by sharing them what I have learned in life through the travels that I have made and also to the people who are experiencing despair and confusion that I have survived. Aside for being a teacher what would become of me? I want to try everything that suits me, everything that can make me happy, because there’s where I can find happiness.

The family is the people who you can always lean on to. Whenever there’s a wound on me there are always there to clean the wounds. My parents would probably enjoy life in a place where they want to end life, on the place where they started their journey. My brother, I don’t know where can I found him probably he would also there. My little sister, she would be busy and opening her eyes to the real world while me is still traveling to be a better person.

My heart realized to let go of a person even if it hurts even if we don’t want to. It can make us stronger person. Just cherished the memories, those times of laughter, tears, argument and others and try to overcome them and moved on, we should not stay on the past instead we must take the challenge of today because you can still improve your present to have a good foundation for tomorrow.

The time I finished my bachelor’s degree, that’s the time I must be tougher and stronger in order to survive in this game but I don’t like competition. I want all of us to be equal, no one is above or under by a person because we are all unique as what many great people have said. Why compete with others when you’re not the same in totality? What’s the sense of it? Everybody can be great because anybody can serve the only things that matters is the soul generated by love. You don’t have to please everybody because it’s impossible and you’ll probably lead to failure. Being successful to me is just spending my life the way I want it.

SORRY

alam mo simula ng mag kalayo tau..
i had alot of time to think things out
it wasn't my choice to go but some how..
this might have been the best thing..
see i've been thinking bout us.
or if there will be "US" for any longer..
i remember when we was still together
i remember how it was...

i remember the way u use to treat me
i put up with it coz at one point i did LOVED you..
you have threatened to walk away from me for so many times
and ako namn ang ***** hahabulin ka.
mag mamakaawa na wag mo kong iwan..

at sabi mo araw araw ka lang lumuluha sa piling ko..
at sabi mo rin di ako ang gusto mo mapangasawa..
at icocompare mo pa ko sa ex mo..

kala mo di masakit yon?

pero now that we're far apart
kala ko nde ko kaya.
kala ko ma mimiss kita..

pero inde..

im so much happier alone..
no one to control me..
carefree like i used to be..
i miss being me..

coz whe it was "WE" i forgot all about "ME"

im sorry..

i know we made lots of plan together
i know i promised u forever..
but im sorry..
i can't no longer live with lies

cguro d ko masabi sau to kase the expectation ng mga tao..

ng mama mo..

kase alam ko namn na she never realy liked me..
and she's still praying for us to fail..

well guess what ako nalang ang aalis..

sorry pls..

nde na ko masaya..

nde ko na kaya..

im sorry iiwan na kita..