Raymond

Raymond, you're my new friend
I always like you
But you always like to go
I love you at this very moment
and I'm sorry for makung you misserable
very misserable

Raymond, I was changed
And now my latest addiction was named after you
Since I loved you, I shed some tears
I started dreaming that I was with you
But it will never came

*Don't you know you're in my dreams for a long time
You changed my heart into a place called paradise
But you make me feel insane

Raymond would you stay forever
and be that pretty doll that I never had
and I had tried some ways to forget you
but as the days passed
your face didn't fade
I'll visit you in my dreams

Repeat*

You make me feel insane

Ever felt that way?
Youre in the midst of a crowd and yet it seems that you are alone?
This morning i knew how it felt.
You smile.
You laugh.
But it isn't real.

Everything is fake.

a lie
a joke
a facade a
n impostor

I'm tired of this shit.
Once again I fall.
Numb to the pain.
Or so I thought.

hope is such a cruel bitch.

He leads you on.
He makes you high.

Then drops you.

I am scared to hope.
The ember of hope in my heart is now smothered by a thick blanket of fear and hesitation.

I am scared for him.
Maybe things will be better.
I pray for it everyday.

He seems as fragile as crystal vase.
When Hope drops you.
Do not worry.
At the point that you shatter,
I'd be right here.
Picking up pieces of your broken self.
I wouldn't mind bleeding for you.
I'd do anything to make you whole again.