Blast from future...

A new year has come. I don’t remember what happened to me. I wasn’t able to remember the things that molded me this kind of person. I know I was trapped in the past, years of confusion and despair but with the help of some people, I was able to achieve what I’ve been looking for.

I do have a lot of ambitions in my life. I love to explore lot of things in life. I want to try everything. Why? I don’t know, I really don’t know probably I can make an alibi, a good one would be, I love to live life to the fullest but the truth is I’m searching for a place where I can succeed or can fill my half empty soul.

As I walk down the aisle of life I felt the roses, their thorns that put scar on my bare feet. Fortunately, I was able to reach the end of the aisle, the one that I was dreaming of when I was a teenager. I must say, it’s not easy, it’s so hard to fight for your goals but time revealed that I was for it; it was my destiny even for a while. I belong there and set to stay for a moment and keep on singing my songs but just like a traveler I have to leave to explore the beauty of life, the other beauty, to search for what I’ve been looking for.

I’m a teacher that’s what my diploma has said, a teacher or probably an instructor or professor having an extraordinary life- not just touching the heart of my students or my co-faculty but also the other people by sharing them what I have learned in life through the travels that I have made and also to the people who are experiencing despair and confusion that I have survived. Aside for being a teacher what would become of me? I want to try everything that suits me, everything that can make me happy, because there’s where I can find happiness.

The family is the people who you can always lean on to. Whenever there’s a wound on me there are always there to clean the wounds. My parents would probably enjoy life in a place where they want to end life, on the place where they started their journey. My brother, I don’t know where can I found him probably he would also there. My little sister, she would be busy and opening her eyes to the real world while me is still traveling to be a better person.

My heart realized to let go of a person even if it hurts even if we don’t want to. It can make us stronger person. Just cherished the memories, those times of laughter, tears, argument and others and try to overcome them and moved on, we should not stay on the past instead we must take the challenge of today because you can still improve your present to have a good foundation for tomorrow.

The time I finished my bachelor’s degree, that’s the time I must be tougher and stronger in order to survive in this game but I don’t like competition. I want all of us to be equal, no one is above or under by a person because we are all unique as what many great people have said. Why compete with others when you’re not the same in totality? What’s the sense of it? Everybody can be great because anybody can serve the only things that matters is the soul generated by love. You don’t have to please everybody because it’s impossible and you’ll probably lead to failure. Being successful to me is just spending my life the way I want it.

SORRY

alam mo simula ng mag kalayo tau..
i had alot of time to think things out
it wasn't my choice to go but some how..
this might have been the best thing..
see i've been thinking bout us.
or if there will be "US" for any longer..
i remember when we was still together
i remember how it was...

i remember the way u use to treat me
i put up with it coz at one point i did LOVED you..
you have threatened to walk away from me for so many times
and ako namn ang ***** hahabulin ka.
mag mamakaawa na wag mo kong iwan..

at sabi mo araw araw ka lang lumuluha sa piling ko..
at sabi mo rin di ako ang gusto mo mapangasawa..
at icocompare mo pa ko sa ex mo..

kala mo di masakit yon?

pero now that we're far apart
kala ko nde ko kaya.
kala ko ma mimiss kita..

pero inde..

im so much happier alone..
no one to control me..
carefree like i used to be..
i miss being me..

coz whe it was "WE" i forgot all about "ME"

im sorry..

i know we made lots of plan together
i know i promised u forever..
but im sorry..
i can't no longer live with lies

cguro d ko masabi sau to kase the expectation ng mga tao..

ng mama mo..

kase alam ko namn na she never realy liked me..
and she's still praying for us to fail..

well guess what ako nalang ang aalis..

sorry pls..

nde na ko masaya..

nde ko na kaya..

im sorry iiwan na kita..