The Piano Player

I must admit I fell in love
With someone I could never be with
It is a very hard feeling
That I’m ready to let go

Somewhat the same as prayer
Repeated over and over
There is no other danger
Unlike when you’re on the river
What you feel now is quite denser
That you can float in air
You want this feeling forever
When you heard the piano player

Hate this part of the scene
I don’t want to listen
Want to get out this den
Come out fulfill my dreams

This is not a fever
Or I’m not sober
Don’t need any cover
All I need is savior
From this piano player

Now I need to go
I fell so helpless too
I’m another victim
Trying to fight for love

You had me at my best
I know I’m so careless
And now I’m so breathless
All I want is rest
In this thing I called mess

Surrender

It’s getting darker
Can’t see anything
Roads gone smaller
Can’t move anymore
Their getting bigger
Can’t be seen now

I’ve been trapped here
Oxygen’s running out
And now I’m crying
Because I’m helpless

I know I don’t belong here
I know you will arrive
And save me from this mess
You’ll gonna give me some light

I'll remember your smile, that easy smile that i could never be again the reason for. If I miss you I'll just use your simple name. I don't know how to let you go but If you're so willing then I'll learn to. Things just don't fall into place you want them to but I truly wish you get it as you please. I braved the violence of your existence for only and now I would have to be most brave without you and I will. If it made me cry only because I want it to pour like rain so that after I won't fret summer or anything steamy I will be. Thanks for the moonlight and a year of two seasons I thought I wouldn't have to worry bout the fourth quarter storm. Don't worry I will find my calm. There's always a rainbow after the rain right? I don't know how but I know I'll find my pot of gold I thought I already have but then I don't.

CHANCE

don't want to be a loser
but it seems like im loosing you
slowly we're drifting apart
an im beggining to feel the pain

things weren't like this before
you use to be a fond of me evermore
everything then turned right for me
now i dont know what went wrong

you know i did everything
to follow your heart and you
no doubt and hesitations
coz i thought we could make it through

here i am waiting
for what will happen after
coz i know your not listening
look, i'm trying to get hold on you

hope that you could give me another chance
chance to start w/ you again
chance to show you how much i love you
chance that could change our life through

The Love That Never Was


I knew there was something special about you
But I didn’t see that the first time I saw you
But somehow in some strange way
I felt a gentle tug in my heart
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
It may be the way you smile
It may be the way you look
Either way, I realized I was beginning to like you
I started wishing… I started dreaming…
The feeling is something I’ve never felt before
It’s a wonderful feeling that sometimes makes me smile
It’s a feeling that makes me all jumpy inside
But it’s also a feeling that makes me want to cry
I’ve watched you from a distance
And I’ve longed for a single smile
But all you ever gave me is longing
My heart aches every time I hear you sing
Coz you sound so beautiful
I feel warm every time I see you smile
My heart beats faster every time you walk by
I don’t wanna say I’m crazy about you
I don’t wanna say I’m falling for you
Coz it hurts to know that I would never mean anything to you
And it hurts even more to know there’s nothing I can do
Sometimes it makes me so sad
But still, I can’t stop thinking of you
I can’t say I love you, I can’t say I do
For I don’t even know you
And even if I wanted to… say a thing or two
There’s no way I can get through
So I guess I’ll just be admiring you from a distance
I can’t even look at you as much as I want to
There are a lot of things I don’t understand
A lot of questions I don’t have answers to
But one thing I know for sure
I may mean nothing to you
But boy, am I glad to know you!
And no matter how stupid this feeling can get
I’m never ashamed to admit it’s true
Coz no matter how hopeless, no matter how painful
God knows I’m happy there’s YOU…

It’s hard to fly on the sky
To fight and defend life
But what’s the hardest part of all?
Is it saving others life
Or saving my ruined life?

Faced and defeated demons
Takes just a minute to finish
But defeating you is never easy
It’s the hardest of them all
And it takes a long, long time

Closing Cycle by Paul Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

.......I always pretend to be happy, talking a lot and laughing out loud so that nobody would know what’s really inside but at the end of the day, I always find myself alone, encountering the crucial truth; that I’m too broken inside and not even a million laughter can take away the pain. Only if there are such medicines for emotions, I would take it triple dose or even higher.”

Just when you’ve moved on and thought you’ve finally gone far enough, something brings you to a touchstone. And that’s how you realize love has a habit of coming back.......

Sometimes you just have to put a period on something that has to end, and not just settle for a comma. It’s because time will come and you’ll realize that it’s nice to see a complete sentence, rather than seeing a phrase that’s completely hanging and doesn’t make any sense.

If it’s real and if it’s true love, then it’ll always be there. You can pretend it’s gone and even move on but that love, it’s still there in the depths of your mind. Sometimes a single object or a song triggers it all, and you’re right back where you started, in the arms of the one you lost.

If you have to try and convince yourself that you don’t care about someone, you definitely care about them more than you think.

Everytime I hear people say ‘what a small world…’ I kept on wondering why. If the world is small, why is it that most of us hasn’t found what makes us happy?

If you want to know where you heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders. Love will always stray into the place you least expect.

people come and go. It's the nature of time: that nothing stays the same, everything is always in constant motion, everything is always moving. Some things move backwards while some move forward and there are those that go up and down. But regardless of the direction, there is always movement. Love, relationships and couplehood are no exceptions.

But one thing, though: It's memory that makes people sad. It's when you hold on to the past that you feel regret, nostalgia, sadness. Holding on to the past is trying to stop time's forward motion. As cliched as this may sound, healing is a process. There will be days that you will feel like you have finally moved on but at the middle of an ordinary day, it will strike you... you haven't. There will be good and bad days.

But now, you have the license to cry.. howl if you want to. Revel in the sadness of your heartbreak. Let it out. Just make sure that after all these, you will snap out of it.

Blast from future...

A new year has come. I don’t remember what happened to me. I wasn’t able to remember the things that molded me this kind of person. I know I was trapped in the past, years of confusion and despair but with the help of some people, I was able to achieve what I’ve been looking for.

I do have a lot of ambitions in my life. I love to explore lot of things in life. I want to try everything. Why? I don’t know, I really don’t know probably I can make an alibi, a good one would be, I love to live life to the fullest but the truth is I’m searching for a place where I can succeed or can fill my half empty soul.

As I walk down the aisle of life I felt the roses, their thorns that put scar on my bare feet. Fortunately, I was able to reach the end of the aisle, the one that I was dreaming of when I was a teenager. I must say, it’s not easy, it’s so hard to fight for your goals but time revealed that I was for it; it was my destiny even for a while. I belong there and set to stay for a moment and keep on singing my songs but just like a traveler I have to leave to explore the beauty of life, the other beauty, to search for what I’ve been looking for.

I’m a teacher that’s what my diploma has said, a teacher or probably an instructor or professor having an extraordinary life- not just touching the heart of my students or my co-faculty but also the other people by sharing them what I have learned in life through the travels that I have made and also to the people who are experiencing despair and confusion that I have survived. Aside for being a teacher what would become of me? I want to try everything that suits me, everything that can make me happy, because there’s where I can find happiness.

The family is the people who you can always lean on to. Whenever there’s a wound on me there are always there to clean the wounds. My parents would probably enjoy life in a place where they want to end life, on the place where they started their journey. My brother, I don’t know where can I found him probably he would also there. My little sister, she would be busy and opening her eyes to the real world while me is still traveling to be a better person.

My heart realized to let go of a person even if it hurts even if we don’t want to. It can make us stronger person. Just cherished the memories, those times of laughter, tears, argument and others and try to overcome them and moved on, we should not stay on the past instead we must take the challenge of today because you can still improve your present to have a good foundation for tomorrow.

The time I finished my bachelor’s degree, that’s the time I must be tougher and stronger in order to survive in this game but I don’t like competition. I want all of us to be equal, no one is above or under by a person because we are all unique as what many great people have said. Why compete with others when you’re not the same in totality? What’s the sense of it? Everybody can be great because anybody can serve the only things that matters is the soul generated by love. You don’t have to please everybody because it’s impossible and you’ll probably lead to failure. Being successful to me is just spending my life the way I want it.

SORRY

alam mo simula ng mag kalayo tau..
i had alot of time to think things out
it wasn't my choice to go but some how..
this might have been the best thing..
see i've been thinking bout us.
or if there will be "US" for any longer..
i remember when we was still together
i remember how it was...

i remember the way u use to treat me
i put up with it coz at one point i did LOVED you..
you have threatened to walk away from me for so many times
and ako namn ang ***** hahabulin ka.
mag mamakaawa na wag mo kong iwan..

at sabi mo araw araw ka lang lumuluha sa piling ko..
at sabi mo rin di ako ang gusto mo mapangasawa..
at icocompare mo pa ko sa ex mo..

kala mo di masakit yon?

pero now that we're far apart
kala ko nde ko kaya.
kala ko ma mimiss kita..

pero inde..

im so much happier alone..
no one to control me..
carefree like i used to be..
i miss being me..

coz whe it was "WE" i forgot all about "ME"

im sorry..

i know we made lots of plan together
i know i promised u forever..
but im sorry..
i can't no longer live with lies

cguro d ko masabi sau to kase the expectation ng mga tao..

ng mama mo..

kase alam ko namn na she never realy liked me..
and she's still praying for us to fail..

well guess what ako nalang ang aalis..

sorry pls..

nde na ko masaya..

nde ko na kaya..

im sorry iiwan na kita..

When It's Over





Must say goodbye
happy times shared
It's already over
Tears down now
time has finally arrived
time to say goodbye

I remember you holding my hand
walking at that beautiful park
with the shining moon, our guide
and birds singing joining with our joy

Watching romantic movies
feeling the love that they're in
having a glimpse of your face
like the sky which possess astonishing looks

Happy days we have seems so far away
just like you, just like now
shared on moments,
shared joys, smiles
and even tears,

Time is running so fast and its our enemy

Those days are hard to forget
It keeps rolling over my head

Ladies and Gentlemen: Good Afternoon. Try to look at the sky, do you think it’s gonna rain? It so amazing to feel rain, the water that flows into you is unstoppable, sometimes raging so fast or maybe gently pours down. Rain is like love. What is love? Love is a very powerful word. It is an unstoppable emotion that is supposed to be felt by every one of us. When someone is in love, actions are set to do in order to show the love and to bind it into a relationship. See that’s what love can do, but does the same thing happen to all of us? The answer is no, there are some love which are not bound to happy ending. Sad but that’s a fact that becomes a part of the Earth’s rotation.

How can you tell to someone that you’re in love with him/ her? It’s too hard, isn’t it? It takes a lot of courage but sometimes the bravery that you have will turn into misery. A thing that can ruin you or mold you to be a better person. Is it fair? I think it is because having the courage to love you should also have the courage to suffer too and love without pain is impossible.

Love can be magic but as we all know magic can sometimes be an illusion. Why can’t it be real? There are certain reasons why can’t we have the love that we are aiming for. Listen to the following phenomena. First, let me ask you, “Who are your celebrity crushes?” have you ever think that a famous celebrity have a feeling for you? Well if you answered a big yes you might be experiencing erotomania a phenomena in which you think a celebrity is falling in love with you and you think that person is your soul mate. Sounds impossible, isn’t it? But it is happening most especially to the teen-agers. Next, who is your best friend? Who are you’re friends? I can tell you who you are by knowing them but I can’t tell if you’ll be falling in love with each other. Respect is what attached person in friendship and it is set to be destroyed by love especially at the end of your story. How about this, is there anyone on your same sex that arouse your interest or maybe a member of your family that you want to build in with? Its more complicated because here people involved thinks about what the people that surrounds them are set to think, it seems like you care a lot about what the society has to say. When we fall in love, it’s the soul that is captured and fighting with it will not be easy. Those alibis are good excuses why can’t you have the love but what if there’s nothing really wrong. What if the reason is just simply the person just don’t like you? That’s the hardest reason possible I think.

The heart broken times, the time where in you're saying that you're an idiot falling for the wrong person. There are times that you're all alone, sleeping and waiting to be woke up by him/ her but unfortunately, and no face appeared as you open your eyes the next morning. We usually do certain things in order to erase that person in your mind. One would probably said that finding another love is the best thing others may moved on with their life and do a lot of things and making their selves busy by giving time for their family, studies, career or even social life. But is forgetting someone who put scar on your face that easy? No, some would probably be stuck in that moment, be a hostage of the love and be trapped there, believing, being faithful, and learning to love without anything in return.

What’s the best option among the list that I have given a while ago? Actually it depends on the person; whatever the choice is let’s respect it. Whatever it is the love inside will never die, still remaining there. I think loving someone without anything in return is a big blessing, its true love, the love that everybody wants but unfortunately ignoring it when its there. The efforts you have would where simply be wasted. It is somewhat like there's a glass that fell on your feet and the blood is already dripping but that person just looks at you, still unconscious, looking but never knew that you did that to get the attention. You'll be doing that until the time that you realized that you became addicted. In your thoughts, in your dreams, that person is always there. He/She is like a leech that sucks blood from you and you can't breathe and you can't see the world without him/her, that person has taken over you and you realized that you need to be fixed.

On the time that you realized you lose yourself and the damage has been done for you, that's the time wherein all you think is how to fight the feeling, how to kill it, it is the hardest part in love. Why are you afraid of losing that person when you know that he/she is not aware that you exist? Forgetting someone is not easy, one must solve the problem in order to forget and its not easy that why the next best option is set to come, to avoid, try to let go. Letting go is not to forget, not to think or to ignore. It doesn't have any feelings of sadness, emptiness, hatred, anger, jealousy or regret. It’s not about pride and it’s not dwelling on the past or blocking memories. Most of all it’s not about giving up and being a loser. To let go is to cherish the memories, to be thankful to the memories that made you laugh, cry and grow but to overcome it and moved on. Its learning, experiencing and growing molded together. It’s having a confidence in the future. Letting go is having the courage to accept change and accept there are things that cannot be, and the strength to keep moving. It’s to open a door and to clear a path and set yourself free.

You realized that the time of departure is already there and as we travel we carry something with us. Everybody would probably agree that its nice to travel with someone who can lighten up our load, but usually its easier to just drop what we've been carrying so we can get to our destination sooner even though there's still no place to land on. Where will we go? Why do we clutch at that baggage even when were desperate to move? Because we still believe that a chance is still there and believing on it, letting go will not be possible instead we walk away to the lovely sunshine that is waiting for us and do the same mistake again, instead of killing it, you already lose control and waking up from this nightmare seems impossible and all you can do is to pray let it be over.

Ladies and gentlemen, a while ago I said that in order to feel love I must be ready to suffer. I feel bad because you, the one who opened my heart was not the one for me but do I have the right to blame you? The answer is no because you didn't asked for it but did you ever realized that you did something to me one day, the day you break my suit of armor by simply taking over me. I'm not the same person I was 2 days ago since that day. Something is different and I can't figure it out and I know I can’t never be that me again. I call your name over and over, like a refrain. I became your hostage; you ate me and leave me like the last piece of cookie in the jar, all alone and broken. I’ve been lickin’ my wounds but the venom seeps deeper and I’m about to break that’s why I need to walk away from you that's why I cried a river and made a bridge that I’m about to pass. I know I can pass the bridge without looking back at your side, without regretting that I passed it. The time that I can be on the other side of the bridge, smiling and facing the lovely day that I've should felt before when I was with you. I know that day will come, very soon, very very soon.

With that ladies and gentlemen, that’s the love that I’ll never have.

You know what after that day, I changed. I am no loner the same person I was two days ago. I don’t know what the difference is but I know I am not the same and I will never be again. There is lot of stars from different views but still I see nothing but you of all destinations. The world will get tired of me sooner but I will never get tired of you because for you there will be no endings. I will say your name over and over again, like a refrain. I make new constellations, images of you as I watched you moved. I will forever hold you like a kite in the sky. I long for the fields of your hair. I am not the same person who believed in fate. I won’t believe in signs anymore, because they really don’t mean anything, no matter how bad you wish they do. I don’t believe in love anymore, there’s no happily ever after. I would fall in love with you all over again, even though I know the way the story ends. And even after the hurt you brought, even after the tears I cried for you, even after the heartbreak you caused… If only I could go back to time and be with you, I would. Because the pain I feel now isn’t greater than the love I felt when I was with you and I would do anything to feel that way again even its only for a moment…

A lot more tears

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

I remember the tears I've cried before
When I thought that you'll never be mine
Im so sad and the world would collapsed
but at time goes by, the sad tears dried
and smile came all over my face
Or am I just a nonsense air to you

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

I think that our love story would never end
As days of happiness filled up our days
Beautiful days and nights that we've shared together
In just a splash, our love story suddenly stopped
I was crashed into small pieces

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

Why you give me this gift I dont deserve?
Why you left me here?
You didnt even think of me

You didnt even think
How can I face tomorrow
How can I survive?

Did you know that you're the only reason why Im breathing

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

CHOCOLATE CAKE

Like a piece of chocolate cake

really addictive sweet taste

every bite you take

you would probably crave for more

just like you, just like you

Tasting and tasting it now

till you realized its already the last

You dont know what to do

coz you probably crave for more

just like you, just like you

Will those sweet tatse never fades?

Will the taste be remain in me?

Im cravin' for you like a piece of chocolate cake

so sweet and delicious getting my attention

Do you feel the same? or am I just alone?

in this sweet thing

and Im addicted

Im addicted

What if its the last?

and nothing follows?

what will you do?

a very sad situation

just like this, just like this

Im about to break

and dont know what to do

What can't stop me?

its probably cake..

I loved it, Im cravin

Will those sweet tatse never fades?

Will the taste be remain in me?

Im cravin' for you like a piece of chocolate cake

so sweet and delicious getting my attention

Do you feel the same? or am I just alone?

in this sweet thing

and Im addicted

Im addicted

Seems so far away, thats you and I

Feel so lonely now bcoz dont have you

Crying for the cake , that sweet chocolate cake

like before, like before

Will those sweet tatse never fades?

Will the taste be remain in me?

Im cravin' for you like a piece of chocolate cake

so sweet and delicious getting my attention

Do you feel the same? or am I just alone?

in this sweet thing

and Im addicted

Im addicted

TEARS

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

Wasting my time, while Im around you
You never noticed me, you're always ignoring me
Am I invinsible in your eyes?
Do you feel my aura?
Can you feel my spirit?
Or am I just a nonsense air to you

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

Always just on your side, just looking at you
It seems like you can't see all those stuffs
Anything I do is simply nothing
Can you see the broken glass there? Its because of you
I want to get your attention
Blood is flowing now on my feet

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

Why you give me this gift I dont deserve?
Is this the proper way of treating me?
Why did I let you enter my life?

Liquid falling from my eyes, what is this?
Its taste too salty, is this tears?
Is this tears come from you?
Is this a gift brought by you

Pero me acuerdo de ate.......trapped in my past just cant seem to moved on...

"The Real Story"

Pero Me ACuerdo de Ate is a song written by Mr. Rudy Perez, actually fave song ko yan di ko lam kung bakit malay ko ba kung anong translation nyan pero dhil masipag ako nalaman ko na ang translation niya ay

"Then I Rememeber You"...

Ngaung summer I must say na-realyz ko ang importance ng song na yan (wud u jst imajin parng chem lng, nalman ang im4tnce) ng bumlik sa alaala ko ang isang taong pinilit kong kalimutan ng mtgal... Actually di ko lam kng naklimtan q xa, cguro nasapwan lng xa at nung nwla ung mga sunpaw ay bglang pumtok ang bulkan kong puso at di ko napgilan ang sarli ko na gwin ang ilang bgay na aaminin ko ay cheap, pero anong maggawa ko puso ko ang ngsbi sa kin na gwin ito at di ko lam kung pano ko pipglin un...

first day ng kabliwan ko ay ang april 22, dito ng-umpisa ang concept at idea ko sa masasabi kong malaking project ko ngaung bakasyon at dito umikot ang buong bakasyon ko, aaminin ko mejo mahirap itong gagwin para akong ng-aabang ng shooting star o kya para kang ng-aabang ng jip sa overpass... ang labo di ba? ayan din ang naisip ko pero lam ko magtatagumpay ako, ang problema lng ay hindi ko alam kung kelan... Pero ano ba ang ginagawa ko??? Wla lang inaabangan ko lang ung taong naging parte ng buhay ko, di ba mukhang mdali?? Pero sa totoo mahirap xa kc wla kming communication kya ako ay nagbabakasakali na lmang at pumpnta ako sa tapat ng lugar ng bahay nila... nagpatuloy ang hysteria na yan (parang F4 lng) at lumitaw ang araw at buwan at ako xemre patuloy pa rin sa pag-aabang sa knya..

Pero bkit ko ba un ginagwa?? Sa totoo lang di ko alam ang dhilan bsta isang araw na lang sa buhay ko naisip ko na gawin yan cguro na-LSS aq sa Pero me acuerdo de ate kya naicip ko xa!!! or should i say na gsto kong mabuo muli?? o bka naman nangugulila ako kc huli ko xang nasilyan noong Jan 10, 2006? Ano man ang tunay na dahilan jan ang alam ko gagawin ko ito dhil ito ang gsto ako at di ko kelangang magapliwanag....

Enough with the reasons, back tau sa knya.... Di ko mapaliwanag ang nadadarama ko pag nakakarating ako dun at nag-aasam na mkita xa... Sa mga araw na pumupunta ako dun alam ko nasa panganib ako, maraming tanong ang nasa isip ko gaya ng pano pag nahuli niya ako, pano pag nakita ko ng kakilala ko (tyak ko iicpin nila na patay na patay ako sa knya), o mas malala pano pag na-aksidente ako hindi pa naman alam ng mgulang ko ang gngwa ko at ang layo-layo namn sa kanila (isipin mo P9 ang pamasahe ko, makarating lang don).... Bsta alam ko pag di ko xa nkikita lalong tumtaas ang energy level at lalo aqng nagiging pursigido...

By May nag-umpisa ang plugging para sa concert ni XTina sa Pilipinas at gsto kong manood nito doon pumasok ang isang bgong ideya ko (pwede rin cgurong kagaguhan) na gmwa ng isang deal sa sarili ko...... Sabi ko Manonood ako ng concert ni Christina Aguilera kapag nkita q xa at pag ndi ko xa nkita ndi ako manonood.... Nang cnbi q yan asa kaibigan qng bulaklak (sara) sbi nya kelangan daw isang positive at isang negative para daw mw pakunswelo pero di ko cnangayunan un sbi ko mas mbuti na ito pag talo talo pag panalo eh di panalo... cnbi ko ito sa mga taong alam ang nagaganap sa bhay ko at nging maaus namn ang reaxon nila...

Noong May 5, 2007 ay isang kapanapanabik na kaganpan ang naganap, sa totoo lang di ko lam kung ano ba ang dapt gwin ng araw na un, pkiramdam ko noon ang tagumpay ay paparating na....kso mejo blurd pa ang tgumpay ko...

isang tao ang nkita ko, naramdaman ko xa un... pero di ko nasilayan ang mukha niya dhil malyo xa sa kin kya, bgla aqng bumababa ng jip, maxadong mabilis ang mga sumunod na pangyayari na hndi ko namalayan na parang nwala ang katinuan ko.... Lmapit ko at tumungo doon pero sa tkot kong magksalubong ang among lndas ay lmayo ako at ang kinalabasan ay ndi ko nakumpirma kung xa ba tlga un.... mtapos ang pangyayari na un ay lalo pang lmakas ang determinasyon ko na masilyan xa....


dumating ang mga araw at di ko namalayan na umaandar ang araw na di ko xa nkikita hanggang isang araw (May 18) isang sign ang binigay sa'kin ng Panginoon sa totoo lang nakakalungkot dhil ang sign na un ay nagsasabing itigil ko na daw ang gnagawa ko, nag-concede na ko by that time dhil sa sign na un at mrhil ay isang maari png dhilan ay ang pagkakita sa kin ng isang kaibigan... Pero nsabi ko sa sarili ko na di ko pla kaya kya nagptuloy aq sa gingwa ko....

Dmating ang May 31... di ko xa nasilayan, nakaklungkot di ba?? Parang pintalo ko ang sarili ko sa sugal ng di lmalaban..... Natalo ako...



natalo ako dhil di ko xa nkita at di ko pa mapapanood ang concert ni Xtina....

parang sinuko ko ang dalawang mahal kong tao... nakakalungkot....

Christina Aguilera Back to Basics Tour Live in Manila

Some clues for ya about the upcoming Xtina concert in Philippines!

Her stage gear that she is flying in with is being stored in TWENTY 40 FOOTER VANS

She will be flying in with 2 JUMBO JET PLANES

The stage base can hold 1200 TONNES OF WEIGHT

Her entourage consists of 88 PEOPLE BOOKED ACROSS 3 HOTELS in Manila

The entire production crew numbers 350 PERSONELLE to run the event

SHE is 5’ 2’’ in height. Mahatma Ghandi was 5’3’’

Roberto Cavalli is the tours exclusive costume designer

She is just 26 years of age

She joined as part of the New Mickey Mouse Club in 1992

She has three dogs -- a bull mastiff named KoKo and papillons named Chui and Stinky -- previously had microchips injected at Bradford Hills Veterinary Hospital.

She’s won SIX GRAMMY AWARDS, FIVE MTV MUSIC AWARDS, 2 BILLBOARD MUSIC AWARDS



WATCH OUT !!!

Christina Aguilera “Back to Basics” tour Live In Taguig* On July 6 at the Bonifacio Global City Open Field.

Tickets are available at all Ticketworld Outlets.

http://www.mtvphil.com/event.php?id=11