Leaves (falling from the trees)


Yesterday seems so long
and I know I was wrong
for saying your a dope
I'll always have a hope
that you will forgive me
and start our romance again
and be stronger than ever

Leaves falling from the trees
Dancing in the tune of the wind
Singing with its strength
They're getting stronger, stronger, stronger
Don't leave
Don't leave the tree
because it needs you
but sometimes you have to go
Falling apart
Falling from the trees
need to say goodbye

Give it up when its time to do
let go now and soon you'll know
That's what we need in our life
for us to grow
let go and you will grow

Open up your eyes


I feel so alone
feel like I was trapped
I don't know what I'm feeling now
I think that I am lost somehow
I need to see the sun
Now its getting dark
All that left here is misery
I think that I need a light

I want to be the kite
but there is no light
I cannot see the sky
The moon bids goodbye
Suddenly there's the rain
feels like I am insane
with every drop that falls on my face
Make me realize that this like a maze

We only need to try
Never have to cry
for our love not to die
We must not believe them
All the feed us are lies
use your sense of sight
Come open up your eyes and see
that they're tearing us apart
that they always love to do
But they can never tell
what will happen next


Come open up our eyes
Come open up your eyes
All we have is you and me

Still

I know you are longing for me
My comeback is what makes our sun shine
The star shine on the dark night
The reason why you keep on surviving

The love that you gave to me is incomparable
Something that everyone who have it must treasure
A diamond that can never be break
Not other ordinary thing that fades

Nights and days will come
So as the season and year
The world will get tired of me soon
But you will always be there for me

Raymond

Raymond, you're my new friend
I always like you
But you always like to go
I love you at this very moment
and I'm sorry for makung you misserable
very misserable

Raymond, I was changed
And now my latest addiction was named after you
Since I loved you, I shed some tears
I started dreaming that I was with you
But it will never came

*Don't you know you're in my dreams for a long time
You changed my heart into a place called paradise
But you make me feel insane

Raymond would you stay forever
and be that pretty doll that I never had
and I had tried some ways to forget you
but as the days passed
your face didn't fade
I'll visit you in my dreams

Repeat*

You make me feel insane

Ever felt that way?
Youre in the midst of a crowd and yet it seems that you are alone?
This morning i knew how it felt.
You smile.
You laugh.
But it isn't real.

Everything is fake.

a lie
a joke
a facade a
n impostor

I'm tired of this shit.
Once again I fall.
Numb to the pain.
Or so I thought.

hope is such a cruel bitch.

He leads you on.
He makes you high.

Then drops you.

I am scared to hope.
The ember of hope in my heart is now smothered by a thick blanket of fear and hesitation.

I am scared for him.
Maybe things will be better.
I pray for it everyday.

He seems as fragile as crystal vase.
When Hope drops you.
Do not worry.
At the point that you shatter,
I'd be right here.
Picking up pieces of your broken self.
I wouldn't mind bleeding for you.
I'd do anything to make you whole again.

Darating Din Siya

Ang pag-ibig ay sadyang ganyan
Pagtitiyaga at tiwala ay kailanagan
Upang ito’y iyong makamtan

Magtatagpo kaya ating daan
Magkakasalubong kalian kaya?
Ikaw ba ay nasaan?
Bakit ba tayo di magkatagpo?

Maghihintay ako gaano man katagal
Kahit na oras ay kay bagal
Ako’y patuloy na magdarasal
Dahil ikaw ang aking mahal

Darating ka ba kalian kaya?
Maghihintay ba ako at aasa?
Masisilayan pa ba kita?
O tuluyang iwaglit sa alaala?
Hanggang kalian ako maghihintay
Na matapos ang iyong paglalakbay

Nag-aabang ako sa’yong pagdating
Maririnig baa king tinig?
Nababanaag ba aking daing?
Gusto ay init sa gabing malamig

Darating ka din, iyon ang alam ko
Handing maghintay itong aking puso
Para lang maramdaman pag-ibig mo

CRAM (A song of sorry and thank you)


Been pretty crazy over you before
You’re the only thing that revolved around my world
Didn’t get enough concentration, only distraction
It’s all because of you

But I forget all of those misfortunes
Even it hurts and I want to get away from you
But temptation never dies
Keep doin’ that mistake over and over again

Crazy in love with you, don’t know what you did to me
Can’t do anything what’s the cure for this?
Even if you dumped me, I keep coming back

You’ve been a part of me
I’m not a part of you
I keep on falling, falling and falling again

I said I love you
You just regret it
I keep on saying, saying and saying again

When will I learn
That you should let go of you
When will I see
That you are no good to me

Want to say thank you for bein’ a part of me
Made me realize what my real worth is

Already moving on
Not part of you anymore
Even it’s too late
I know I’ll be okay
Bridge between us burned

Say thank you for the smiles, talks and jokes
Say sorry for the tears, bitterness in my mouth

Want to say sorry because I fell so badly

Something

The Piano Player

I must admit I fell in love
With someone I could never be with
It is a very hard feeling
That I’m ready to let go

Somewhat the same as prayer
Repeated over and over
There is no other danger
Unlike when you’re on the river
What you feel now is quite denser
That you can float in air
You want this feeling forever
When you heard the piano player

Hate this part of the scene
I don’t want to listen
Want to get out this den
Come out fulfill my dreams

This is not a fever
Or I’m not sober
Don’t need any cover
All I need is savior
From this piano player

Now I need to go
I fell so helpless too
I’m another victim
Trying to fight for love

You had me at my best
I know I’m so careless
And now I’m so breathless
All I want is rest
In this thing I called mess

Surrender

It’s getting darker
Can’t see anything
Roads gone smaller
Can’t move anymore
Their getting bigger
Can’t be seen now

I’ve been trapped here
Oxygen’s running out
And now I’m crying
Because I’m helpless

I know I don’t belong here
I know you will arrive
And save me from this mess
You’ll gonna give me some light

I'll remember your smile, that easy smile that i could never be again the reason for. If I miss you I'll just use your simple name. I don't know how to let you go but If you're so willing then I'll learn to. Things just don't fall into place you want them to but I truly wish you get it as you please. I braved the violence of your existence for only and now I would have to be most brave without you and I will. If it made me cry only because I want it to pour like rain so that after I won't fret summer or anything steamy I will be. Thanks for the moonlight and a year of two seasons I thought I wouldn't have to worry bout the fourth quarter storm. Don't worry I will find my calm. There's always a rainbow after the rain right? I don't know how but I know I'll find my pot of gold I thought I already have but then I don't.

CHANCE

don't want to be a loser
but it seems like im loosing you
slowly we're drifting apart
an im beggining to feel the pain

things weren't like this before
you use to be a fond of me evermore
everything then turned right for me
now i dont know what went wrong

you know i did everything
to follow your heart and you
no doubt and hesitations
coz i thought we could make it through

here i am waiting
for what will happen after
coz i know your not listening
look, i'm trying to get hold on you

hope that you could give me another chance
chance to start w/ you again
chance to show you how much i love you
chance that could change our life through

The Love That Never Was


I knew there was something special about you
But I didn’t see that the first time I saw you
But somehow in some strange way
I felt a gentle tug in my heart
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
It may be the way you smile
It may be the way you look
Either way, I realized I was beginning to like you
I started wishing… I started dreaming…
The feeling is something I’ve never felt before
It’s a wonderful feeling that sometimes makes me smile
It’s a feeling that makes me all jumpy inside
But it’s also a feeling that makes me want to cry
I’ve watched you from a distance
And I’ve longed for a single smile
But all you ever gave me is longing
My heart aches every time I hear you sing
Coz you sound so beautiful
I feel warm every time I see you smile
My heart beats faster every time you walk by
I don’t wanna say I’m crazy about you
I don’t wanna say I’m falling for you
Coz it hurts to know that I would never mean anything to you
And it hurts even more to know there’s nothing I can do
Sometimes it makes me so sad
But still, I can’t stop thinking of you
I can’t say I love you, I can’t say I do
For I don’t even know you
And even if I wanted to… say a thing or two
There’s no way I can get through
So I guess I’ll just be admiring you from a distance
I can’t even look at you as much as I want to
There are a lot of things I don’t understand
A lot of questions I don’t have answers to
But one thing I know for sure
I may mean nothing to you
But boy, am I glad to know you!
And no matter how stupid this feeling can get
I’m never ashamed to admit it’s true
Coz no matter how hopeless, no matter how painful
God knows I’m happy there’s YOU…

It’s hard to fly on the sky
To fight and defend life
But what’s the hardest part of all?
Is it saving others life
Or saving my ruined life?

Faced and defeated demons
Takes just a minute to finish
But defeating you is never easy
It’s the hardest of them all
And it takes a long, long time

Closing Cycle by Paul Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill. None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else. Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important. Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

.......I always pretend to be happy, talking a lot and laughing out loud so that nobody would know what’s really inside but at the end of the day, I always find myself alone, encountering the crucial truth; that I’m too broken inside and not even a million laughter can take away the pain. Only if there are such medicines for emotions, I would take it triple dose or even higher.”

Just when you’ve moved on and thought you’ve finally gone far enough, something brings you to a touchstone. And that’s how you realize love has a habit of coming back.......

Sometimes you just have to put a period on something that has to end, and not just settle for a comma. It’s because time will come and you’ll realize that it’s nice to see a complete sentence, rather than seeing a phrase that’s completely hanging and doesn’t make any sense.

If it’s real and if it’s true love, then it’ll always be there. You can pretend it’s gone and even move on but that love, it’s still there in the depths of your mind. Sometimes a single object or a song triggers it all, and you’re right back where you started, in the arms of the one you lost.

If you have to try and convince yourself that you don’t care about someone, you definitely care about them more than you think.

Everytime I hear people say ‘what a small world…’ I kept on wondering why. If the world is small, why is it that most of us hasn’t found what makes us happy?

If you want to know where you heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders. Love will always stray into the place you least expect.

people come and go. It's the nature of time: that nothing stays the same, everything is always in constant motion, everything is always moving. Some things move backwards while some move forward and there are those that go up and down. But regardless of the direction, there is always movement. Love, relationships and couplehood are no exceptions.

But one thing, though: It's memory that makes people sad. It's when you hold on to the past that you feel regret, nostalgia, sadness. Holding on to the past is trying to stop time's forward motion. As cliched as this may sound, healing is a process. There will be days that you will feel like you have finally moved on but at the middle of an ordinary day, it will strike you... you haven't. There will be good and bad days.

But now, you have the license to cry.. howl if you want to. Revel in the sadness of your heartbreak. Let it out. Just make sure that after all these, you will snap out of it.